Time to get caught up!

So when I prepared for my time in the hospital, I packed like I was going to a 5 star resort! An outfit for every day, my full skincare regimen, all of my make-up, 5 (yes 5) books to read. I mean I envisioned myself in full make-up, entertaining visitors and enjoying the new “room service” style of getting hospital meals! Yeah……that’s not AT ALL what my 4 nights in the hospital looked like! It was more like nausea, exhaustion, round the clock vitals, awful food, zero make up, don’t even want to think about showering or visitors, can’t get comfortable, constipated,  no sleep, GET ME OUT OF HERE!

I came home on Monday 8/26. I had slept about 15 minutes the night prior. My husband tucked me in on the couch and within 10 minutes I was asleep for 2.5 hours. It was AMAZING! I dozed on and off all day, then slept a good 7 hours that night!

I opted to get off of the opioids while I was still in the hospital. I came home on Tylenol, stool softeners and Xanax as needed.

I am learning that this is all going to be a bit of a roller coaster for awhile. Surgery went great and for that I am so grateful! The staff at the hospital were truly incredible. The flowers, texts, calls and visits have been so comforting.

My nerves get the best of me though! I mean come on, this is scary! The surgeon called today to check in and share the pathology results. It’s an “ugly” cancer. Aggressive but contained to the kidney. He got it all!”Clear Margins” is the term they use and it sounds like that’s what you want to hear. He also said the words “this is a good pathology report!” That felt so good to hear! But then why does it still feel a little “ugh”? Well, it’s just scary and uncomfortable. It’s not a diagnosis anyone wants to hear regardless of how well things go! There are still those annoying little lung nodules, but we will watch those. This is GOOD NEWS!

I need to learn to really live in the moment! We all do honestly! Felicia is gone! We agreed to allow them to utilize the mass for research once the pathology came back. Apparently while under the influence of pre-surgery relaxation drugs and while talking about our “donation” of Felicia to science, I looked down at my kidney area and stated “she’s (Felicia) destined for greatness, just not with me!” So that’s that. She’s OUT, gone, no more! Maybe she’ll help someone else with the research done. It’s time to move on. The weather is amazing, my son’s wedding is in just over 2 weeks, I have friends and family who love me SO MUCH and this life is so beautiful! I think I’ll just go get to really enjoying it! Do the same!