The weekend, much like my life of late was a WHIRLWIND! Saturday was a good busy! Courtney and I went to the farmers market early that morning. She was off to my soon to be daughter in law Amber’s bachelorette party after that! Darren and I shopped for groceries, a quick pontoon boat ride then I was off to Courtney and her husbands house for the night to dog sit. Darren stayed home and I have to say, it was probably good for us both to have a little alone time. I spent way more time playing with the dog, going for a walk, and watching the shows I like on TV then I spent thinking about Felicia! (reminder: my kidney mass has been appropriately named Felicia! BYE FELICIA!) I was fully stocked up on water and healthy snacks. (thank you Courtney!) And her house is SO COZY! Around 10pm, I headed to bed. Her bed is comfy x1000! I fell gloriously asleep feeling great and then it happened! Someone poked my arm, (it was 2am) I jumped approximately 8 feet and am fairly certain I blacked out briefly! It was my daughter……. GEEZE GIRL! It would seem that opting to be responsible at the party paid off as I do believe the 1.5 incredibly emotional weeks prior may have finally caught up to her. Sleeping was not an option so home to climb in bed with her mama was in order. After my heart started beating again, I managed to fall back to sleep. I do love her so!

Sunday was productive! Courtney and I planned to make and freeze meals for the first week or two of my recovery at home. My very lucky husband is now armed to make us chili, enchiladas, lasagna, chicken & rice casserole and more! It was a fun day. Courtney did most of the work if I am being honest, but I did try to help!

I definitely notice Felicia’s presence more than ever. I suspect mostly due to simply knowing she is there. Additionally, my anxiety regarding the kidney removal surgery is at quite a high! I know it’s normal and I am so ready to get rid of the mass, but I am really nervous!

I do still thankfully remain free of any severe pain or blood in my urine (sorry for the TMI) which are often symptoms of RCC. (renal cell carcinoma) Someone that is comforting.

I often continue to feel as though I will perhaps awake from one hell of a nasty nightmare. But, it would seem that this is real. This is happening. But the support is overwhelming at times. You really start to realize how much people genuinely love and care about you! My recommendation: Start treating your loved ones, friends, hell, even people you don’t know and maybe run into in an elevator or restaurant like you care. You care because we are all in this together really. And in truth, I don’t think I look sick when people see me, so you just don’t know what people are going through!

Be kind, smile, tell someone their shoes are cute or their hair looks amazing, or just say “have a great day”. It’s so frigging easy to do and feels SO GOOD! Ya have to get some nice “feel goods!”