It’s official. This has become a bit like “dear diary” for me each day! I honestly don’t know if another person will see it, but it sure is helping me!

Tuesday was another pretty “normal” day in the grand scheme of things. I told more people, the puppy dog eyes and pats on the back are now in full effect. I find myself telling people “It’s okay”, “I’m going to be fine!” Wait, what……? Shouldn’t everyone be telling me that? Real talk? They are! Lot’s more hugs, no more tears, offers of gin and a few more kidney’s. Good Lord I have great friends!

I left work a bit early today. My daughter whisked me away to my happy place! TARGET! I’m finding myself looking for things to have with me in the hospital next week. Comfy cloths, my mini blender, I told my husband I wanted the toaster there, but he felt that may be pushing it. I feel a bit like a little girl school cloths shopping or heading off to summer camp.

I’d be lying if I didn’t say that the fear still lurks in the bushes. I have never had a “big girl” surgery. But at the end of the day, for a REALLY shitty situation, I have the best team, the best support, kidney’s galore waiting for me if needed, an attitude of so much gratitude and a mission. More to come on the mission. For now, I’ll breath and maybe head out in a bit to sit in the sun and watch it set. Should be BEAUTIFUL tonight. And things look so much more colorful and bright these days!